envelope

Devotion Pierces My Heart

I hate my enemies, cling to friends,
And am befuddled about what to do or not do.
When I practice, I am dull, sluggish, and sleepy.
When I don’t practice, my senses are clear and sharp.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to destroy my enemy, emotional reactions.

From the outside, I look like a practitioner,
But inside, the practice has not taken root.
Like a snake, I conceal poisonous emotions.
My hidden flaws come out when I experience difficulties.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to tame my own mind.

Because I don’t see my own shortcomings
I behave like a materialist though I look like a practitioner.
I am completely addicted to reactions and non-virtuous activity.
Good intentions constantly arise but they are constantly cut off.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to see my own faults.

As each day passes, I move nearer to death.
As each day passes, my personality becomes increasingly rigid.
Though I follow my teacher, devotion steadily fades.
Sacred outlook and affection for fellow students decay bit by bit.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to tame this wild mind.

I take refuge, arouse awakening mind, and pray,
But I don’t feel devotion or compassion deep in my heart.
I’m not touched by practice or virtue:
I just pay lip service and go through the motions.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to make what I do effective.

While the teachings say that all suffering comes from desiring happiness for oneself,
And full awakening comes from intending to help others,
When I foster awakening mind, I secretly focus on what I want.
Never mind helping others, I harm them as a matter of course.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to put myself in another’s place.

My guru is really the Buddha, but I see him as an ordinary person.
I completely forget how kind he is in giving such profound instruction.
When I don’t get what I want, I lose faith.
My doubts and distrust of his behavior blind me.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy so that devotion continually grows.

My own mind is fully awake, but I don’t recognize it.
The essence of thinking is what is [36] but I don’t know this.
Not controlling is true being, but I can’t stay there.
Settling naturally leads to how things are, but I don’t believe it.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy so that awareness releases naturally.

Death is certainly coming, but I can’t take it to heart.
The holy Dharma is certainly helpful, but I can’t practice it properly.
Karma is certainly true, but I don’t act appropriately.
Attention is certainly necessary, but I’m swept away by distractions.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to be constantly mindful.

Because of former bad karma, I was born in a dark age.
Everything I’ve done so far will just give rise to more suffering.
The bad influence of others casts shadows over me.
Pointless conversations sidetrack my efforts to do good.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to work hard at practice.

At first, I thought of nothing but practice;
In the end, the only results are lower realm seeds.
The frost of non-virtue destroys the harvest of freedom!
Barbarians like me undermine our own worthwhile intentions.
Guru, think of me: look upon me quickly with compassion.
Give me energy to follow the Dharma to the end.

Give me energy to feel disenchantment deeply.
Give me energy to stop useless planning.
Give me energy to take death seriously.
Give me energy to trust the evolution of actions.

Give me energy so my path is not interrupted.
Give me energy to work hard at practice.
Give me energy to make use of adversity.
Give me energy to apply correctives with confidence.

Give me energy to feel genuine natural devotion.
Give me energy to meet how things are.
Give me energy to awaken natural awareness in my heart.
Give me energy to destroy confusion and projections.
Give me energy to awaken fully in this one life.

Treasured guru, I pray to you.
Kind Lord of the Dharma, I longingly cry out to you.
Unworthy though I am, my only hope is you.
Give me energy to make my mind one with yours.

Although several devoted practitioners asked me to compose a prayer of this genre, I neglected to fulfill their request. Recently, because Samdrup Dronma, a lady practitioner of noble family, and Deva Rakshita have earnestly made the same request, I, Lodrö Tayé, who merely maintains the appearance of a guru in this dark age, wrote this at the great meditation center, Dzongsho Deshek Dupa. May virtue increase.

In order to give his students a taste of the power of devotion, Ken McLeod translated this prayer in Los Angeles, California, building on the previous translations by the Nalanda Translation Committee and Rangjung Yeshe.

  1. In order to fit the line to the Tibetan meter, Kongtrul abbreviates this saying. The more accurate statement is the essence of thoughts is what is (dharmakaya). []

Pages: 1 2 3 All Pages